Pin Cushion

Yes im still injecting myself twice a night didnt think i would hear myself say it but it really isnt too bad! When you think of the grand scheme of things, i think the egg collection is the biggy but im not too scared about that either its just all very exciting to us stil (wait til im in pain after op i might change this he he)

Managed to leave the house twice in the whole weekend (im getting used to this relax and rest buzz)!
Once for a lotto ticket and 2nd time for dinner, very good i say!!!

Oh and being a Aquarian one thing you need to know about us wacky waterbearers is we change our minds ALL THE TIME!! and to add to that im a compulsive canceller. So i cancelled my facial on sat, times are tough money is tight and $60 was over my limit and im hormonal so dont mess with me :)
But got a massage scheduled for Tuesday night (free) so thats good for me HA!!

Looking forward to this week, wednesday am blood test to see if i am reacting to this second lot of drugs im on. and then they will tell me when i can head over to hamilton to have a ultrasound to see how many eggies i have growing yippee !! so if all is well, next week is the big one for egg collection op etc etc blah blah.
And thanks to everyone for there support and if i fall off the face of the earth (even more than i already have) its because we are busy playing with eggs and ovaries ok?
It feels like there is a jack hammer in my head today, its such a shame i cant drink cause these headaches are like the worst hangover headache ever!but for free!! without the alcohol!
Oh and did i mention i cant have chocolate or caffeine!!
Ive been off that for a few weeks now so im a decaf girl.
word for the wise, dont ever order a chai latte with sugar!!!!! my lord it tasted like warm milk with cinnamon and 1/2cup sugar ewwwwwww too sweet.

smallest blog ever!

i down regulated so we are all good today! start my stimulation (growing eggs) drugs tomorrow night. so will be jamming two needles in every night now !
just another step closer ...............................................to either becoming a infertile gypsy or a mumma

Facials massages and follicles.

Well had my Down regulation blood test this morning will find out later this avo if i have down regulated and if so hopefully this is how the next few weeks should go.

26th June - start stimulation drugs.

2nd July -Blood test to check how stimulation drugs are reacting.

3rd July- scan to see how follicle growth is progressing.

Week beginning-7th July - egg collection. (nice operation with rather large needle)

About 3-5 days after that is embryo replacement.

Nothing but good times ahead.!!!!

At present im feeling hopeful, tired, headachy,extremely forgetful and clumsy, angry (sometimes), happy (sometimes), just up and down really, slept for 11 hours last night, it seems this is what my body wants so i wont argue with it, or I pay big time with a masssive migraine like headache (it is not pretty)

I MUST SAY NOW I SOOOOOOOOOOOO CANT WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND IM GOING TO BE DOING NOTHING BUT LYING IN BED READING MY BOOK AND WATCHING MOVIES yay!!!
As this is all im capable of at the mo.
Oh and the clinic suggested that we pamper ourselves in this time of our treatment i couldnt understand why until now!!!As pampering involves not talking to anyone and pretty much sleeping its perfect for a hormonally, grumpy, clumsy, ticking timebomb like myself ha ha so i booked a facial at Club royale in papamoa (my first facial) and a massage next tuesday yay!

Another thing that sucks is Angus has been offered work in Noosa and Vanuatu for July, isnt that wicked!!!! NOT!!
He obviously cant go as we need his sperm to create our Mini Pullen so that really bites big time . He is really cool about it as he wants a bubba more than work anyway.

weekend!

what a weekend!
after being so cocky about not having "supposed" side effects from my hormone drugs.
they all crept up and bit me on the arse sat night! my god!
Went out to dinner with friends was feeling good put the layers of makeup over the hormonally challenged acne face and dressed up in my "new" boots, bought off trade me (see picture) bought for a cool $45!!!! So cool!


ok, ok, geting off subject now!! (its the menopause alright!?)
one red wine down ! then WHAMMO!!! my headaches hit full force couldnt even string a sentence together think one of the girls thought i was smashed but i was just really mash brained from pain and hot flushes,
Then i felt like bursting into tears (for no particular reason) and because it was for no reason that i felt like crying i figured that was quite funny so wanted to burst out laughing as well ! (talk about conflicting emotions)

So now i know why the little booklet i was given called "COPING WITH TREATMENT" says........
"one day you will have one way to deal with a side effect then the next day it wont work at ALL!!" and you will have to find another way to handle it ha ha!

ok so im feeling ok today i figure i have to take each day, hour by hour now, not day by day.

Angus took me to hot pools sunday morning, no one was there so it was so lovely had a little sleep in pools then home to watch a movie and a little avo siesta (as had a work dinner to go to and didnt want same thing to happen to me from sat night)

Took my drugs to dinner as I have to inject same time every night, and did a lovely show for the staff with my injection yes yes photos were taken. and jokes were shared lucky i was feeling emotionally stable i didnt have to get all freaky menopausal on them he he.

Actually it may sound strange but as i see my bosses and workmate more than anyone at the mo, i seem to be quite comfortable around them all and i suppose they are all the most clued up with everything step by step (apart from angus) so its quite good they are all supporting me heaps???

side tracking

hello all
well i played netball last night with the mother of all headaches and after injecting myself at work ha ha, we won 28-19 and my partner smelt like she had wet her pants, god where the hell do they drag these skanks up from man yuk! Or i think i just get the stinky ones!.

Ok so i have taken a liking to stalking trade me and other fashion store websites looking at jackets and boots, yes well it takes my mind of other things, tuesday night i entered a bidding war for a wicked pair of USA leather cowboy boots and then pulled out at $198 as after i asked angus "where the hell will i wear these?" his answer was "with a mini skirt in summer like jessica simpson!"
"YEAH RIGHT"
so i pulled out and my god $198 was pretty up there for a pair of boots i hadnt tried on but heres a pic

Day 6 Of injecting

Ok thats it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Is it over yet ? am i pregnant?
far out im very very impatient today , i have figured i have at least!!!! 4-5 weeks to go arggghhhhh i mean its great i have to go off pill on thursday blood test next tuesday, so i do have things to look forward to but this is how sick i am, I look forward to injecting every day now ha ha,

just because in some insane way im a step closer to falling pregnant. funny huh? well not for me really, i suppose when you have tried for over 4 years and had nothing everything i do is leading to HOPEFULLY a positive pregnancy test.

oh and if its negative i might buy a bus and become a gypsy.

CAPTAINS LOG

Day 5 of injections, things are looking good so far (i think)
few moments of irrational behaviour , night sweats, hot flushes, and mean hangover headaches,extreme tiredness but im soldiering on this is probably the best i will feel once we get the 2nd lot of injections started late next week to grow my egg farm.
Have a blood test next Tuesday to check for Down regulation then nurses will tell me to start taking the 2nd injection hopefully next thursday (all going well if my body has responded to drugs the right way)so then i will be injecting twice a day ha ha.
Had Tamy and chris over last night to watch my drug show! Tamy had her hands over her ears??????? Yes we did ask why? but that was her coping mechanism we suspect he he.
Oh i have these insane cravings for Apple strudel lately ?? Thats what i had for dinner sat night? weird huh? I think its since i have cut out the red wine i need something to replace it ha ha. Well it helped me slep 12 hours so thats all good for me.

getting my hit

here it is the first injection, i apologise now for the swearing but it is quite funny looking back now he he,,,,,,,,enjoy


oh and even at the start you will see madam mucky pants in the film of course she had to be in it ah ha ha

FIRST VIDEO OF FIRST INJECTION

netball!

This could possibly be my last game of netball tonight so Im fully going to" BRING IT!!'

Last week we played the biggest bunch of pie eaters i have ever seen ha ha they were all moari chicks (im not being racsist as i am part hokianga horry myself thankyou) and i literally bounced off my partner a few times she was solid as and a bloody good player to boot! but im sorry galfriend not good enough to beat me, yes yes we whipped there butts so that was sweet!
Went home with two black blood blisters forming on my pads of my feet and a black toe nail from a few weeks earlier, so there goes my foot modelling work DAMMIT! he he
So tonight lets hope for a similar outcome. (not the feet part)

OH AND ONE MORE SLEEP TILL NEEDLE DAY YIPPEEEEEEEE

God im on the pill and im sure my boobs are growing by the second, after not being on it for so long you forget the side effects of it,
So i say to angus the other night "oh my god angus pullen!! i have breast cancer (as being a aquarian everything is cancer ok? ) " my boobas are so sore i think they will fall off!"
I kept saying this for about 3 days and in the end he said to me
"your on the bloody pill for f&*k sake your tits are getting huge thats why there sore THERE BLOODY GROWING!!!!
Isnt it great men are so simple sometimes?
this put me out of my cancer misery ha ha.

here we go

ok so thursday was GREAT!! learnt heaps, the consellor was just the coolest lady answered heaps of questions and pretty much gave andrew the job of Drug manager which he happily took, we then went to the nurses and learnt how to inject the 2 different types of injections i will be using.as you will see in the pictures.

So i will be starting the buresilin injections next thurs so thats going to be exciting!!! oh and i will tape it jus for my own sick reasons he he.
The buresilin will put my body into a menopausal state so i dont produce any eggs.I will take ths for 2 weeks then start another injection called Gonal F which will kick my body into producing a whole chcken farm of eggs he he.

the drugs and needles combined work out to about $900 a pop so dont really want to screw it up.

the counsellor did mention not to tell too many people about our journey (woops too late) as towards the end when we are waiting to see if it worked or not it could be difficult if we get a negative blood test for a pregnancy.
so I will tell you all what happens but it will be in our own time.
and i appreciate all the support eveyone has been offering thanks heaps.

ha ha

too remind me and angus of what and why we are doing this.......
ive put these little white knitted baby mittens on my fridge, which megan gave to me nearly four years ago when we first started trying to conceive.

amazing i still have them i know i know you would think i wouldve thrown them ages ago and given up hope ha ha. not me i tell ya.

Drug teach

yippeee
ok so friday i told Bev & Kev ( my bosses) about my IVF and they were so great about it i dont know what the heck i was so worried about.
Got a call from the Hamilton clinic with my "IVF PLAN" the nurses was sooooooooooooo cool she says "o this is your first ever IVF cycle isnt it??? " im like YEH! and she sounded more excited then me "alrighty lets get the ball rolling for you then HONEY!!!" (big change to the other witch i spoke to at the start of it all)
. so excited .
im off to hamilton on Thurs June 5th for a meeting with a counsellor, then Drug teach with the nurses (basically learning to inject myself) which i will start doing on June 12th (so watch this space for my video clip of my first injection)
then meeting with a IVF group for questions and to meet the other lab rats like myself who are going through this he he h.

Saturday went to Priscilla queen of the desert with some posse had a fun night out and that was the last hoorah of drinking any wine or anything with alcohol in it, actually quite happy about that to be honest yippee.