bye bye new born

well my girl is 5weeks4days!!!
and is grown ot of her newborn clothes weighing in at 11pound8 today!!!
WOOHOO. very proud mumma -:)
She is following her musical mobile with her eyes and smiling and gooin and gaaing at it, it bought tears to my eyes this morning!! so obviously every milestone from here on in is going to be accompanied with tears from myself so the poor child is going to find me super embarrassing for the rest of her life !!

SHe has had a few bad afternoons (they call arsenic hour or witching hour)where she screams blue murder for a hour on and off and you cant do anything to console the poor wee button it breaks my heart. But its normal so we just grin and bare it.

SHe is still sleeping 9pm-3 or 4am so thats fine by us at the mo actually its awesome i think she enjoys nighttime sleeps with mummy and daddy in the room with her ha ha.

well someone just woke up !!! go figure this happened last time ....

okay okay

its been AGES!!! but to be honest blogging wasnt high on my priority list he he
Dusty is 4.5 weeks now and weighed in at 4 week check a bonny 10pd12oz so is packing the pies on nicely.

Im recovering well now after a bout of infection , week long antbiotics to fix it which upset dustys tummy. and now coming right now. Oh and to be super gross i had my first ingrown hair in my scar (gross) i know and had a friend from antenatel group here telling me of horror storys with drains and 30cm long cuts from ingrown hairs so i promptly got the needle out an did a doctor job on my self ha ha i know im sick but seriously im honest.


Dusty has started smiling and gooing and gaaing its so cute, we are so in love with her its wicked.

Got a kiddly that has just woken up (murphys law) so will try to post again soon :)

Baby Blues

THey are real!!! and they suck!!
poor angus had to deal with it for the first week i just dont know why but i couldnt stop crying, im now on my 2nd day without crying so fingers crossed it was just a quick phase i went through.

Its a bloody scary job being a mum all of a sudden it just hit me like a freight train and i felt like a possum caught in the headlights of a truck!!
THe great thing is that you do get closer to your partner in the grand scheme of things i dont know what i would do with out my husband hes my rock and my heart. SOme of the baby books you read say that you could end up further apart then closer together (dont know where they get that from?)

Dusty is doing great!! Feeds sleeps poos (heaps) and thats about it!!!

We have been out of the house since she was a week old she is 10 days now.
Visiting people and just cruising.
COuldnt be bothered being couped up at home having constant strings of people coming to visit so just took off and had a nice day out.

Dusty put on 400gms in her first week so weighed 9pd4oz at 7 days old so be interesting to see how much more she chunks on in her second week.

SHes here

Well she has finally made her appearence,
Dusty Vienna May Pullen,
Born 10th April 2009,
weighing 8pound 6ounzes.
After 2 days of prelabour pains we headed to hospital to get induced at 7.30am on thursday 9th APril ,
after walking the hospital steps for hours we finally had some contractions kick in from 11am thru to 3pm when they broke my waters. Things kicked up a notch and we thought dusty would be with us by midnight, but after a jab of pehidine, my body decided it would stop altogether. so we waited midnght came and went and obstetricians decided we would try MORE drugs to bring on labour again and threw in a epidural for fun as well. So we had to wait 3 hours for the anaesthesitist to turn up so by 8.30am a very worn out Tanya finally gets her epidural more drugs to kick in contractions and we are told to wait 2 hours to see if dusty would like to think abou making a appearence. SO by 10.30am the specialists reviewed us (i was over it by then) and Dusty was determined too big and no progressing well enough so a emergency c section was decided on. My body started having convulsions by then from all the drugs an was wheeled in to theatre with a very worried husband with me, docs tell me to let them no if i feel anything when they pull her out ?? anyway they pulled an tugged (ew) and Dusty came out crying it was a pretty amazing feeling. :) Until i felt my insides being ripped out and screamed so was knocked out quick smartly under general and awoke in recovery room with a happy elated husband holding our baby girl and everyone asking me how i felt???? i was pretty wasted to be honest so just cried i think.

SHe is feeding gloriously and came out knowing how to breast feed lucky me :)
We are loving all bein at home now after a 3 day stay in hospital ad to get out of there it was doing our heads in. Poor andrew did some 7am to midnight stints in with me to calm me down as i had a pretty rough time. ANd wasnt too happy or healthy for a couple of days.

just in case

39week 4 day tummy


40week 4 day tummy

here is the 40 week 4 day tummy and the 39week4 day photo so one week difference there. Not sure if i have dropped i think she is so big she aint going to drop shes just filling in more room everyday she gets pudgier and pudgier ha ha

someone said they think im having a ten pounder today ha ha gee thanks

40weeks4days

yes i am still here!!! in one piece!!!
our litle angel hasnt made her debut yet so looks like she will be getting evacuated on Tuesday if all goes well.
After trying al the things people (you know the ones who think they are doctors) tell you to do to bring on your babies. I have come to my own conclusion babies come wen babies are ready and if you manage to be swallowing litres of castor oil or having hot curry or sex when they do come it is just lucky timing ha ha.
So madam will no doubt decide if she wants out in the next 36 hours or will get forced out.
Still getting heaps of movememtns and my braxton hicks are still uncomfortable and feel al bit like period pains, but from what i can tell its all just a build up to the big event whether it be days or weeks away (with some people)
Im feeling pretty sweet still no sleep but you get that, so just make the best of the situation and sleep when i can even if it is in 1.5 to 2 hour lots.
Angus has calmed down and got hold of himself and is ready for his little girl to come and seems quite calm now (thank god!!) i couldnt think of anything worse than having to calm my own husband down while giving birth ha ha.
its funny ive been thinking to myself alot, make the most of not having a sore foofee with stitches in it or a inside out bumbum or bleeding nipples (god i hope my dad isnt reading this) cause i am sure that is going to be a very trying time ha ha but just looking at my girl shoudl dissipate some of the pain.
hey since i have had a few invasive procedures in my time ie. needles going thru my uterus wall to pull out my egss to make this little angel of mine or having endometriosis burned off, or having the most painful period pains for days on end, maybe labour might not be so bad??? ha ha i wil let you know for sure.
oh on another nice TMI (to much information)note Im off for my 4th YES 4th Stretch n sweep tomoro just to give my litle munchkin one more shot of coming on her own. and then lunch with a few other Overdue mummys to be for a debrief without interruptions before these kids come ha ha.

stay tuned.....

39weeks6 days!!

EEEEEEEKKKK!!!!! due date tomorro WOOHOO happy due date to us happy due date to us!!!!
THis is pretty FREAKIN exciting huh?
Within one week we will be parents .
woke up at 4am this morning with a stabing pain in my side and thought WICKED THIS IS IT!!! but after 2 hours and nothing i was thinking mmmm little bit premature thinking that was it doris ha ha, but anyhoo thats another day for me to sort my shite out or do absolutely nothing and catch up on tv and sleep since im waking evey 1.5 hours now not 2 hours. went for a swim at the gym and that has eased the aching hips back and pelvis for a bit.
whats the chances i will actually get more sleep when kiddles is out cause im seriously not really getting any as it is so maybe my super clever child is actually training me for surviving on no sleep already?? I have been saying to angus that we do have a super clever kidlet growing inside me ha ha. which gives me moments of super cleverness (when im not dropping glasses and plates and walking into stuff).

oh and im due tomorro and people say oh your baby runs out of room towards the end blah blah blah well this kiddles still manages to move around and beat the living shite out of me constantly and as for counting those 10 movements a day? i get 10 movements every 15 minutes ha ha well my midife says a moving baby is a happy baby so im running with that one.

ON the stretch and sweep front , it was fine my cervix is back a bit and comes forward as you get closer to going into labour so getting another on weds and friday and next monday so we will see, but NO it didnt hurt and NO im not in labour yet. so stay tuned my little precious followers and no doubt i wil post a blog when i start to go into labour or will send a bulk text as im leaning over the toilet puking or sitting on the toilet with the runs or lying in the back seat of the car screaming at andrew to get to the hospital quicker.

oh and the stretch marks i didnt have a couple of days ago have just started to make a appeareance so looks like this baby needs to be evacuated soon for my own vain needs. ha ha just kidding.

oh and what is it with feeling the need to do or get something and you are not happy until its done?
today it is , i really want a nice white beautiful valance to go on the bottom of my bed and crisp white egyptian sheets and duvet etc so my bed is like a hotel bed???

the last thing was a babys woollen cot blanket (which i got pheuuww)
i will let ya know how i go on the hotel bed front but dont think its going to happen somehow.

the baby has the hiccups so i gotta go and try get comfortable.

39week4day

met up with this awesome photographer this morning called "SELF TIMER!" ha ha
thought i better get a cool pic of the tum before it deflates and everyone who doesnt see me gets to see the babes house and size of it in its full glory.

39weeks2 days ha ha

sleeping in two hour stints through the night.

husband having anxiety attacks about timing contractions. so not sleeping either.

still feel a bit queasy today.

cant wait for stretch n sweep on monday.

hope it rains on weekend (just so much easier to do nothing when it rains)

stil in one piece.

a friend has lent me about 15 latest movies to get through before baby comes.

baby moving lots and getting lots of braxton hicks.

bad bad day-39weeks 1 day

had a bad bad day yesterday.
got up had breaky then went DOWN HILL big time.
I had a baby that was doing somersaults in my belly then the worst ever backache, then bellyache. so i went for number 2's (3 times too much info) and still felt yukky so had a bath (on my tummy if you can picture it)
then put myself back to bed to read a book feel sorry for myself and had a snooze. then re emerged at 1.30pm still feeling a bit queasy and yuk but bit better, force fed myself food then went down the road to pretend i felt normal, supermarket visit then back home and managed to make tea for the master of the house.
Now i have put the yukky day down to a few things.
IM on iron tabs (natual ones that dont constipate you?)
inserting two capsules of evening primrose oil a night (only have done 2 nights)
or just a grumpy baby that does not like things that smell around her head and has a fit because of it ha ha that sounds funny and prob best answer i reckon.
i didnt insert the EPO capsules last night (these are to bring on labour aparently) as i couldnt stand another crap day, and thought im sure if munchkin is going to come the stretch n sweep will be the best way to bring it on then the stupid capsules.

on a different subject.......

i have bought a new camera as you can tell from the last photo.
It is drop proof 1.5metres , shock proof, waterproof 3metres, snowproof, baby puke proof, baby projectile poo proof
so as we (I) have gone through 4 cameras in 4 years i thoght this could JUST BE the perfect model for us (me).
I have managed to drop it 3 times this morning shhhh dont tell angus.
oh and i purchased a extra 3 year warranty on this little bad boy so on top of the 12 month warranty this thing will last us the next 4 years!!!!

well i might properly pack the hospital bags today and go to a movie with a girlfriend hope i can enjoy some of it between trips to toilet and moving in seat due to sore back he he.

39 weeks

here we are !!! one week til due date.

docs say all is good and they wont induce till at least 7th april so i will keep all updated.
Most IVF pregnancys get induced bang on due date but cause of my age and i healthy etc, they want me to hopefully go naturally, more chance of a VB (vaginal birth) if i go on my own so fingers crossed for little golden girl to make her debut in the next 13 days yippeeee.
getting a stretch n sweep on monday the 30t march so opefully that may get things moving naturally .

murphys law

my camera breaks and im due soon ha ha.
nothing much else to say but 38 weeks today and my brain and body has slowed down HEAPS!!
ive started acupuncture which is pretty cool to help with the labour.
people are still giving all sorts of advice and saying weird things.
how about this one ....
"you know your baby can die still? they do sometimes this far along?" (from a man)
NICE ONE THANKS FOR THAT

so no picture for the 38 week but hopefully wll put one up before i pop.

had quite a few visitors on the weekend about 9hours worth????havent even had the baby yet??? i was pretty tired from a wedding we went too so started to feel like i was the local freak show and entertainment attration in the area. ha ha.
i do hope people ring or text first as i dont think i can handle randoms turning up all the time especially iff im tired or emotional uh oh ha ha. i would say its the biggest anxiety for first time parents after speakiing to all the girls in my antinatal group. everyones bigest worry is the influx of people ha ha.

well i havent hit that feeling that everyone goes on aabout "oh i cant wait for this to be over blah blah im so over it blah blah get her out of me blah blah i mean seriously this being a IVF pregnancy i have known from day dot that we were pregnant (and the 7 week build up before being pregnant means a good year of this experience!!)
so its been a LONG pregnancy but definetly im not wishing it over yet???? i dont get it?? maybe cause we appreciate it a bit more being IVF or maybe there are other people that do appreciate it but you just hear the complaining ones the most and the others like me that enojoy it are just more quiet about it ha ha.

im not worried about the birth at all im looking forward to it bring it on baby!! we cant wait to meet our litle precious princess.
i think i appreciate the fact some people can never experience this, i look back now (when we were tryng for the 4 years)and think of all the times i thought to myself "god i would kill just to be pregnnant and be able to experience everything!(when people would complain about pain and other stuff to do with pregnanncy)
and now im 2WEEKS away from being a mummy OH MY GOODNESS.
At acupunctre the other day i said to her (acuuncturist) i think the time feels right for me to have a baby now im calm and not stressed about anything and feel really ready and if we had fallen pregnant when we were tryin for so long maybe the time wouldnt have been right, maybe in a way everything does happen for a reason at certain times in our life?
(now someone did say this to me when i was doing IVF and i nearly punched them ha ha)
i dont know but i better go as im getting all airy fairy and my brain is hurting from having to think for longer than 10 minutes he he.

36weeks

Well ive done it, no more work PHEUUWWW!!!
Have managed to clean house windows, clean pantry, washing, cleaning,etc etc and have a nap in the avo each day ha ha.
Days go so fast when your not working but i am definetly not complaining.
managed to wash some baby clothes as you will see in one of my pictures :)
off to the hairdressers today i rang them and couldnt even manage to tell my hairdresser what i wanted?? brain is in slow motion, so she said she wil see once i get there uh oh ha ha

well brain still not working that good so heres some pics for entertainment.


heres a nice bouguet anna bought down for my baby shower




cookie bouquet from cousin deanna & john

useless

im 35 weeks tomorro and getting more uselesser and uselesser by the minute i think.

here is a photo of me at 34 weeks only a week late but you get the jist.

oh and we practised dressing babies as you can see we did well with our stand in baby, bossy cat.

last night of antinatal class tonight man 6 weeks has gone fast!!!
CPR training for babies tomorro (just in case)

2 more sleeps til end of work WOOHOO!!! my patience factor is really getting bad lately so it is a good thing im finishing up soon,

my GF bec gave me a pedi voucher for my bday (bless her heart)(i nearly died) i couldve got on my knees and kissed her feet for that oh its going to be bliss!!! i cant wait.

and i booked in for a new hair do next week (stuff it) prob be last time i get to go to hair dressers for a while so better start posting some stuff on trade me to pay for it :)

someone (who lives out of the area) mentioned to me they might come and stay Easter????? um something major wrong with that picture is the fact that im due to have a baby on the 1st,2nd,3rd,4th April and probably induced if it doesnt happen those days so the 10th (being easter) i doubt would be ideal for house guests staying a long weekend ha ha

Baby shower on the weekend, was very spoilt and thanks to everyone of you that gave me such lovely things and came along to make the day special. oh and thanks to those who couldnt make it as well and still were naughty and gave us something, i was thinkin of you too :)

34weeks

far out i cant believe i havent blogged in two weeks!!!!

Well nothing much new really except im bigger !! (photos to come)
Antinatal classes continue to be great entertainment for me on Tuesday nights and im counting down til my last day of work on the 26th Feb (pheuuw)

Got my baby shower this weekend which is quite funny as i have managed to avoid all baby showers throughout my life so far, (due to my fertility struggles) the showers i just couldnt really face because i didnt want to celebrate that some tart had fallen pregnant and be reminded that i was a failure (sounds dramatic but its how you feel sometimes believe me)and couldnt.
The shower actually sounds quite exciting now and im a bit gutted i missed all the others but thems the breaks and i will def go to others im invited to from now on.
Im amazed its still going ahead as i wanted to cancel it quite a few times!!!! maybe thats why ya friends organise it for you as stacey wouldnt let me cancel it ha ha, we had to change dates a few times then i am told i have to work which really peeved me off so it is possible i will be running late for my own baby shower and lets hope im not grumpy and tired to add to the mix as i have a few people staying the night ( a few being mmmmmmm 7or so people) but i think we will have fun as it will be the last time i see everyone and can have a normal conversation before being interupted by a baby demanding my time (not that i wil mind that)
anyway this is really just a ramble i think, as my brain hasnt been working properly for a while now so me actually putting a blog on is a major achievement.

New favourite love is the local gym pool ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh YUS!!!! it is so nice being weightless for a few moments in the day when your pushing all black weight status. (im serious)

i am only just starting to get the eye twitch when people ask me when im due now and what im going to call her. I would say i get asked that about 20 times a day im going to throw some curve balls out there because im getting bored saying "april fools" and "we have a list of names" as i dont really want peoples opinions on the name we have chosen as people think you really want to know what they think after you tell them!!! as if.
so how about
when are you due ?? "October! Im only 4 weeks pregnant!"
or "WHAT!!! im not F&^%kn pregnant!"
or "two weeks ago, actually im having contractions NOW!ARGH"
HA HA HA HA HA i am very very EVIL!!

Do you have a name? "yeah tanya junior of course!"
"agatha or gertrude! cant decide really which one do u like?"
"oh shit do I need a name?? i hadnt thought about it!"

Oh i am going tohave fun with this he he

32 weeks

thought i better put a gut shot up just for shits and giggles

mmmm cant think of a title so there!!

okay why is it some days i can bake like martha stewart and other days my baking resembles something a demented cross eyed hobbit would make ????

i tried to make a yummy choco brownie yesterday (that i successfully made 2 weeks ago and was beautiful) and i managed to grill it instead of bake it and am left with a half cooked chewing gum choco thing????

dam dam well that was because i have to take supper to my antenatal class tomorro night so now im going to resort to lollie kebabs or jam and cream pikelets thanks to friends i have asked what is easy and cheap to make ha ha.

mmmmmmmmmmmm what else??

saw a money man today threw him my mortgage papers bankstatements insurance policies told him to make it all cheaper and ran out the door :) so hopefully i hear from him in the next few days ha ha

cant beleive we have only 8 weeks to go??? say what ???

did baby beautifuls room on weekend is looking like the little princesses room i imagined more and more so wil post photos when i get my A into G or may wait til after baby shower as it will look lovely and stocked up then he he.

okay enough bolllocks talk im just waffling now mmmmmmm waffles mmmmmmmmmmm food mmmmmmmmmmmmm food.

shyvers macgyver

Had our scan on friday all very quick and uneventful (had grumpy scan lady again ) saw a kidney and a heart, and told we are having a big baby which is good :) few extra stitches here and there no worries mate :)

started antinatal classes last week as well which i failed to mention, very interesting!!
after hearing horror stories from others about having a class full of pregnant 50 year olds or a class of teenagers that class smoking pot and playing PS2 there hobbie i was a tad worried that i wouldnt make any "Potential Mummy Friends" but we have 11 other couples in our class that are all fairly normal (well as normal as normal gets?) and around there 30's with first baby and know about as much as i do (ZILCH) so thats cool, I now have the potential to become one of those annoying woman who sit in coffee shops all day having coffee groups talking about cracked nipples and stitches and our snotty nosed little perfect children ha ha.
its funny seeing all the different sized woman our tummys range in size and i would say im definetly in the middle/average size so thats good, i considered taking my camera to take a photo of us all, but dont want to come across as the stalker photo taking freak in the group ha ha
oh and the fact i laughed at our teacher when she suggested we leave the placenta attached to the baby after the birth and let it fall off naturally (around 10 days) has already put me in the "loud clown" of the class catergory ,but seriously? who would want to have a plate sized liver to deal with along with a new born ewww oh and the smell after a few days ha ha

30weeks today 30years tomorro

isnt that uncanny!

nothin much happening here, will post a tumtum pic as this little chumbawumba is packing on the kgs i think he he.

i have a sore butt hips legs thighs and im tired, ah yes the joys of pregnancy oh did i mention im extremely OVER feeling like im dehydrating constantly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is the one thing i look forward to after everything not being so thirsty. i hear though that you get more thirsty when breast feeding so this could really drag out ha ha oh well to bad, im still happy as a sambo.

(for backache and saw butt and hips)i have decided straddling my chair like im riding a horse and leaning forward onto the back rest is the most comfortable way to sit at work , not the most glamorous but hey who wants to argue with the pregnant girl at the front counter with the eye twitch ha ha.

mmmmmm?

29weeks 2 days

Well after another day on my feet im resting on the couch with my banana smoothie, book and pooter. Problem is the smoothie wants to come back up now oh well thems the breaks huh :)

Well im 30 next week , havent thought much about it to be honest i pretty much have my bday present already so dont really care about anything else cant wait to start antenatal classes on Tues and we go for our 30week growth scan on friday that should be cool!! i did say to Mr Pullen that i would laugh if the sonographer turned around and said "your little boy is looking nice and healthy!!" ha ha that would be our luck and i will laugh for days then feel sory for kidlet who would know doubt spend his first few months dressed in pink ha ha.

thought i would post a couple of our fancy pants home made photos of the tum tum.

another day another dollar!

WELL 28weeks6days today time is flying by (sort of) now.

Im growing out of clothes at a quick rate and counting down work days left as well!!

My poor old million dollar cat got a urinary tract infection on the weekend so this week consists of ways of jamming pills down her throat without getting clawed or bitten. Team pullen , (me and andrew) have got it down to a fine art now so its not as stressful as it was last year when she had her $600 sporting injury (he he) and we had to have a bottle of wine to drink after each pill popping attempt.he he. we decided it was all training for a baby as im sure things like this happen alot

Mr Pullen has successfully given up smoking for 13 solid days now we are so proud of him and i think he is quite proud of himself as well :) the puking episode on new years day had nothing to do with it though he he.

We took some special tummy photos the other day just in case the baby bump goes bright purple with stretch marks in the next 11 weeks and i think to myself DAM i shouldve taken some photos when the bump looked nice :) poor andrew got barked at a bit as grumpy emotional pregnant witch could not explain herself properly and how the photos were to look he he.

Stay tuned for special bump photo to be posted soon.

beached whale papamoa!!!!

here is my 28 week photo :) its funny you feel so big and then i look at some girls around the 38 week mark and think holy crap i am going to be huge!! awesome!!!

oh and this photo below here is my position last weekend , now i dont last too long as i dont want to burn my bump but its nice to feel weightless for a bit.

nothing much else to report really, blossom puff has stopped kicking me so much and now i get some good nudges here and there and slow movements but thats about it really i think she may be chunking up and running out of room to boot her mumma. Midwife app next monday cant wait :) she can tell me which position blossom is in its so cool!!

NEW YEAR!

here is a photo of the tum tum with little blossom inside at 27weeks and 3 days :)
my little honey pie feels like she is growing so fast and im finding it hard to sleep at night grrrrrrr i think the 29 degree heat wave we had the other day didnt help !!!





















OH AND EXCUSE THE LACK OF UNDERWEAR HE HE HE HE MUCH COMFORTABLE BEING FREE AND EASY


bought a paddling pool that has been a god send so the whale out of water has now found her water ha ha.
enjoyed new years, went to pub and headed home at ten thirty as had a headache, left the old boy there to party the night away and my GF anna came home with me to drink cups of tea and play with baby clothes she passed out at 11.30 and i kept playing with baby clothes it was like xmas all over again he he loving it!!!

old mr pullen spent new years day puking and vowing to quit drinking and smoking he he i secretly had hoped something like this would happen :) now that it is the rd of jan he stuck tightly to his vow but i think the head cold he has developed has helped a bit ha ha i think the not drinking part wont last long but i think the 36 years has finally caught up witht he old boy he he.
anyway back to watching movies, eating and watching my tummy morph into diferent shapes yeee haaw