Bad Day

Me and freckles ( thats number 4's nickname as it is the size of one)are having a bad day today.
Apart from counting down the days too judgement day to see if im pregnant, and if freckle has hung around.
I rang the clinic and spoke to JP my embryologist. and he said all my other 3 embryos didnt make it to a good enough quality to freeze so have been sent to petrie dish heaven (as one of my IVF friends calls it)
No no second chances with this lot, so if freckles doesnt hang around we will have to go through the WHOLE 2 month long process again.
So i had a cry (at work very classy) and now i have a massive headache and am trying to be positive and not swear to much as freckle could still be hanging around and listening( hopefully!!)
Its my sis's bday when i find out the result so there is a good sign.
Im keeping the day pretty quiet only a few know just so i dont get bombarded with "are you pregnant?" texts or phone calls on the day cause if im not i can no doubt tell you now i will be a mess! after this mornings performance at work.